IM RUNNING AWAY

IM RUNNING AWAY AND NOT LOOK BACK EITHER I HAVE TO MAKE IT ON MY OWN WITHOUT TROUBLE  IM GOING FAR AWAY FROM EVERYONE I LOVE BECAUSE OF WHO I AM IM NOT GOOD IM NOT EVIL BUT IM NOT GOOD

NOT SURE....

IT MAKES ME LAUGH WHEN PEOPLE THINK IM OLDER THAN I AM OR WHEN THEY THINK MY LITTLE SISTER IS MY DAUGHTER BECAUSE I TAKE MOST OF THE REPONDSABLITY IN THE HOUSE HOLD AND OVER HER HEHEHE LOOKING BACK ON  IT SHE SHOULD CALL ME MOM BECAUSE IM BASICALLY HER MOM BECAUSE I TOOK CARE OF HER SINCE I WAS 7 YEARS OLD BUT AT THE END IT WOULD HURT MY MOM SO MUCH I COULDNT SIT THERE AND WATCH MY MOM IN MORE PAIN THAN SHE ALREADY IS IN I CANT LOOK AT MY LITTLE BABY SISTER AND TELL HER IM HER MOMMY WITHOUT HURTING THE OTHERS I LOVE IT IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO PULL THROUGHT THAT BUT IF I LEAVE THEM FOR THE MEER FACT IM SAFING THEM THAN NO ONE I FUCKING MEAN NO ONE CAN HOLD ME BACK

SISTERHOOD

SISTERHOOD IS THE ONE THING IN THE WORLD EVEYONE NEED TO CHEERISH  YOU NEVER GOING TO KNOW IF YOUR SISTER CAN BE TAKING FROM YOU OR NOT SHE CAN LEAVE YOU AND NEVER SEE YOU AGAIN. SHE COULD DIE BUT AS LONG AS THOSE LAST WORDS YOU SAID TO HER WERE I LOVE YOU. YOU KNOW THAT AT LEASE SHE DIED KNOWING SHE WAS LOVED. LET JUST SAY TO MANY PEOPLE IN MY LIFE HAVE BEEN STOLEN FROM ME AND I CANT FIX IT BUT IF I LOSE MY SISTER I WILL GO INTO A DARK PLACE THAT I CANT GET OUT OF I WILL KILL THE PEOPLE WHO HURT HER AND THE ONES WHO GET IN MY WAY. I CANT KILL A CHILD BUT THERE IS NOTHING STOPPING ME FROM KILLING AN ASS HOLE OR A BITCH MY WHOLE LIFE I WAS RAISED TOUGH AND IVE BEEN PREPARED TO FIGHT IN ANY PLACE OR TIME THAT I NEED TO AND I DONT BELIEVE IN GUN I BELIEVE IN TORTURE SO IF YOUR READING THIS AND YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE TRY ME BITCH I BEG. YOU PULL THAT TRIGGER ON HER AND YOU WILL FACE A WORSE FEAR THEN DEATH ITSELF

LOVE.... HOW CAN IT BE

LOVE HOW CAN IT BE. HOW CAN YOU JUST ONE DAY WAKE UP AND SEE SOMEONE AND BE LIKE I THINK I FALLING IN LOVE OR IN THE FUTURE I CAN SEE MYSELF MARRING HER OR HIM. IT SO INCREDIBLE HOW LOVE IS WHEN SOMEONE WILL JUST LAY THEIR LIVE ON THE LINE AND PROTECT THEM BECAUSE THEY  ARE SO MADLY IN LOVE THE CANT IMAGE THERIR LIFE WITHOUT THEM. I LIKE TO THINK THAT IF THAT LOVE THEN I WILL NEVER FIND IT OR I WILL GIVE UP ON IT BECAUSE I SEE MYSELF INDEPENDANT WITH MYSELF TO TAKE CARE OF NOT A GROWN ASS MAN. BUT HEY FOR ANYONE WHO READS THIS AND IS IN LOVE I AM TRUELY HAPPY FOR YOU AND I HOPE IT LAST BECAUSE IF LOVE FOUND YOU THEN YOU SHOULD TAKE IT AS A HONOR NOT A CURSE!

IN MEMORY OF JOHN

IN THE MEMORY OF JOHN WE CRY WE LAUGH WE THINK OF ALL THE BAD AND GOOD THINGS. MAN JOHN WOW HE WAS THE MOST AMAZING GUY EVER HE KNEW WHEN YOUR SAD OR FEELING BROKEN HEARTED. HE PROTECTED THE PEOPLE HE LOVED. HE WOULD HELP A OLD WOMEN ACROSS THE STREET AND PROABLE GET HIT ON AND LAUGH. HE WOULD HOLD A CHILD IN HIS ARMS AND SING TO HIM/HER EVEN IF IT WAS BADLY. HE ALWAYS KNEW WHAT TO DO. JOHN I KNOW YOU CAN HEAR ME AND I WANT TO SAY FROM GETTING TO KNOW YOU I LEARNED TO LOVE AND THAT I LOVE YOU. AND YOUR MEMORYS ARE BEAUTIFUL YOUR HEART IS PURE AND YOUR EYES ARE FULLED WITH HAPPINESS WE LOST A GREAT PERSON BUT GAINED A BETTER MEMORY AND FOR THAT JOHN WE ALL LOVE YOU AND YOU TRUELY ARE AND MAN ANGEL!!!


                                            LOVE, MANDY MIRANDA DUNCAN


               IN LOVING MEMORY OF JONNIE BOY

LOVE

LOVE IS A CRAZY THING ONE MINUETE YOU DONT EVEN BELIEVE IT BUT THE IN A FLASH YOUR LIKE HOLY HELL WOW IM IN LOVE IM SHOCK BUT HEY IT IS HERE LET ME ENJOY IT FOR THE TIME I HAVE AND THE PARTERN IM IN BED WITH CUDDLING AND KISSING THEIR NECK. I LOVE THE PART WHERE HE IS SO TICKISH AND HE KEEP GIGGLING BUT HEY IF I CAN STAND AROUND YOU PROTECT YOU AND NOT FUCK YOU OVER AND PUSH YOU 2 FAR THEN ITS LOVES.

YOU KNOW WHAT THEY SAY

YOU KNOW WHAT THEY SAY THAT YOUR SISTER IS SUPPOST TO BE SO CLOSE TO YOU THAT IF THEY DIED YOU WOULD WANT THEM TO TAKE YOU WITH THEM BUT I DONT MY SISTER DREW THE LAST STRAW WITH ME I WAS ALWAYS THERE FOR HER BUT NOW SHE CAN GO FUCKING CUT HER RIST AND I WONT EVEN SHEAD A TEAR FOR HER SO WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF YOUR SISTER CHOKE YOU BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF HER NOT ME I SIT THERE AND TAKE IT CAUSE I DONT WANT TO KILL HER CAUSE I WILL LOSE MY FUCKING MIND AND GO CRAZY AND I DONT WANT TO KILL HER SHE CAN KILL HERSELF BUT I DONT WANT TO GO TO JAIL FOR HER THEN SHE WON!!!

DONT YOU HATE

DONT YOU HATE IT WHEN THE ONE PERSON YOU TRUST JUST THROWS IT IN YOUR FACE AND NEVER THINKS ABOUT IT AND THINKS YOU CAN FORGIVE HER AND MAKE UP WELL NEVER AGAIN................

DID YOU FORGET

DID YOU FORGET EVERYTHING WE EVERY HAD DID YOU CAUSE IT FEELS THAT WAY TO ME EVERY MINUETE TO PASS ME IN THE HALL AND I GUESS YOU FORGOT ALL THE MOMENTS WE HAD TOGETHER ALL THE TIME WE PRETENDED TO GO TO THE BATHROOM AND MEET AND YOU WOULD HOLD ME IN YOUR MUSCULAR ARMS AND TELL ME YOU LOVED ME OR WAS IT ALL A LIE. YEAH I GUESS IT WAS BECAUSE THE WHOLE TIME YOU WERE AROUND ME AND TOLD ME ALL THOSE LIES BUT TO ME YOU WERE THE ONLY ONE I WAS EVER SO TRUTHFUL TO AND WHAT DO YOU DO YOU THROW IT IN MY FACE AND FOR THAT I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU SO GO TO YOUR SO CALLED PRINCESS WELL ASS HOLE I AM THE PRINCESS OF DARKNESS AND YOU WOKE ME UP FOR THE FIRST TIME YOU ALMOST HAD ME BELIEVE IN LOVE BUT THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS LOVE IS THERE NOW SO GO BUT REMEMBER I WAS THE BEST THING YOU EVER HAD AND YOU DID HAVE MY HEART BUT I REMEMBER I DONT HAVE A HEART HEHEHEHE I HOPE SHE MAKE YOU HAPPY!

DAY ONE

DAY ONE IN MY TRAINING AS I AM PUTTING UP MY HAIR I STILL FEEL HIM. I KNOW THAT NOW IT IS A HIM. AND I AM IN DANGER AND HE IS DANGEROUS I CAN FEEL HE IS ON HIS WAY AND I HAVE ONE MONTH TILL HE IS HERE AND I KNOW THAT I HAVE TO BE PREPARED AND NOT TO SAVE ME LIFE BUT MY FAMILYS I WOULD BE NOTHING WITHOUT THEM BUT SOMETHING TELLS ME THAT MY MOM IS KEEPING THING FROM ME BUT THEY WILL ALL COME OUT SOON BUT I WILL BE PREPARED EVEN IF I DO DIE I WILL DIE KNOWING I KILL THE MAN CAUSE I WILL NEED A PARTERN IN HELL. BUT I NEED TO GO AND TRAIN TODAY I AM TRAINING WITH MY WEAPONS!!!!

MY WOUNDS

MY WOUNDS NEVER HEALED RIGHT I HAVE ALL OF THE SCARS.  NOT ON MY BODY BUT ON MY HEART MIKE DID YOU HEAR THAT ALL OF THE TIMES YOU CALLED ME FAT AND UGLY AND TOLD ME I WAS A DIPSHIT AND ALL THAT IS ALL WRITTEN  DOWN IN MY HEART FOREVER BUT HEY NOW I AM THE TOP OF MY CLASS AND I HAVE PEOPLE WHO LOVE ME FOR ME NOT WHAT YOU WANTED ME TO BE HEHEHE! I DID IT ALL FOR ME AND NOW YOU CANT HURT ME ANYMORE NOT SO POWERFUL ANYMORE!

many who dont and the few who will and did

MANY WHO DONT BUT THE FEW WHO  DID GOT REWARDED FOR DYING FOR THE LIVING AND RISE WITH THE DEAD BUT STILL REMAND LOYAL AND STILL FOUGHT FOR THE LIVING. SO MY QUESTION FOR ALL THE LIVING IS ARE YOU PREPARED TO DIE FOR THE LIVING INCLUDING SON, WIFE, PARENTS, AND ECT. AND BE A HERO OR BE A CROWARD AND DIE ALONE AND KNOWING THAT NO ONE WILL CARE YOU DID. I AM PREPARED TO DIE FOR THE LIVING. I WILL DIE FOR ANYONE WHO DESIRES TO LIVE. BUT ARE YOU?

SCHOOL

SCHOOL WAS OK FORTHE MOST PART BUT THEREARE THOSETIMES WHERE I JUST WANTED TO KILL SOME PEOPLE  MAINLY THIS ONE GIRL IT GETSME SO MAD THINKING ABOUT IT

WOULD YOU

WOULD YOU CRY IF YOU SAW ME CRYING NO GOOD CAUSE IF I DIE TONIGHT I WOULD WANT YOU TO NEVER FORGET ME BUT I WOLD NEVER WANT YOU TO STAY, WAIT, OR DIE INSIDE CAUSE WE WILL SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN BUT I CANT COME BACK TO YOU WITH OUT HURTING MYSELF AND MORE IMPORTANTLY YOU I NEED YOU TO MOVE ON WITH LIFE AND HAVE THE FAMILY YOU ALWAYS AND WILL HAVE YOUR MY BESTFRIND YOUR MY OLDER SISTER YOU PROTECTED ME FROM EVERYTHING AND I MEAN EVERYTHING I WOULD KILL AND DIE FOR YOU BUT I WOULDNT ASK THAT FOR IN RETURN I AM YOUNGER BUT YOU HAVE MORE GOING FOR YOU I DONT I LOVE MY SISTER!

YOU MEANT NOTHING TO ME

YOU NEVER MEANT ANYTHING FOR ME I MIGHT HAVE FELL FOR YOU BUT YOU FELL HARDER! IT WAS GOING BAD AND I WAS READY TO LEAVE YOU ALREADY IM NOT SORRY EITHER! ARE YOU? NO GOOD THIS IS THE FINALLY AND LAST GOODBYE NICK NO MORE CALLING ME AT DIFFERENT NUMBERS YOUHURT MY TWICE BUT THIS TIME I WAS PREPARE AND CAUSE OF YOU AND MY STEP DAD NO ONE CAN HURT ME BUT I HURT YOU AND I DONT CRY WHEN I THINK OF US I LAUGHT AT HOW EASILY YOU FELL AGAIN YOU SHOULD HAVE THOUGHT AT ONE POINT I WAS GOING TO GET YOU BACK AND I DID I GOT YOU BACK AS A BOYFRIND AND THEN TOOK MY REVENGE OUT ON YOU IT WORKED AND I REALIZED SOMETHING YOUR A TOOL!!

WHY

WHY WHY WHY WOULD YOU TRY TO HURT ME I THOUGHT YOU SAID YOU LOVED ME! DID YOU MEAN IT OR WERE YOU LYING AGAIN?

RELATIONSHIPS TO ME

IT GETS ME MAD WHEN A WOMEN HAS A CHOICE OF A LOVING, KIND-HEARTED, AND SKINNY/WEAK BUT BRAVE GUY OR A JACKASS, SEXY, ABUSIVE, STRONG GUY AND SHE DECIDES THE WRONG ONE ALL THE TIME!!!!! TELL IS IT WRONG FOR A GUY TO LOVE YOU EVEN IF HE IS NOT THE STRONGEST GUY ON THE BLOCK TO MOST GIRL YES TO ME NO YOU DONT HAVE TO BE STRONG JUST LOVING AND BRAVE!

IS IT SO FUNNY

IS IT SO FUNNY HOW IN THE MOVIES HOW THE SUPER HERO ALWAYS GET THE WOMEN BUT ITS HILARIOUS WHEN THE SIDEKICK NEVER GET THE GIRL EVEN THOUGHT THE SIDEKICK DOES MOST OF THE WORK BUT STILL NEVER GETS THE GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!

YOUR LOVE MOM

MOM YOUR LOVE KILLS ME WE SIT IN THE CAR AND PUNCH EACH OTHER SO HARD WHEN THERE A PUNCH BUGGIE BUT REALLY NONE OF US WANT TO TELL EACH OTHER THE TRUTH I NEVER COME TO YOU FOR ADVICE OR TO TALK ANYMORE CAUSE ALL YOU DO IS POSTPONE IT AND TURN TO YOUR PHONE AND YOU ALWAYS SAY YOU RAISED A VERY SMART DAUGHTER WITH STRAIGHT A'S AND IS GOING TO COLLEGE BUT YOU DIDNT CAUSE WHEN THOSE 6 YEARS OF COLLEGE YOU WENT TO MIKE WATCHED ME SO I WOULDNT KILL MYSELF BUT I RAISED MYSELF MADE SURE I DID MY HOMEWORK AND READED AND ONLY HAD 2-3 HOURS OF TV I DID IT ALL BY MYSELF COOKED, CLEANED, WATCHED MY BABYSISTER ALL ON MY OWN WITH NO ONE YOU SAY I AM LUCKIER THAN THE OTHER KIDS BUT I MIGHT HAVE MORE BUT I DONT HAVE A MOTHER TO TALK TO ABOUT BOYS AND OTHER THINGD I HAD MY OLDER SISTER CREEPY! BUT I HAVE TO THANK YOU CAUSE IF YOU DIDNT MARRY MIKE AND GONE TO SCHOOL I WOULD PROABLY BE SKINNY AND WEAK BUT I AM HAPPY TO SAY I AM STRONG AND DARK CAUSE BEING DARK REALLY IS NOT WHAT PEOPLE THINK IS MEANS YOU CAN SEE THINGS DIFFERENTLY YOU SEE WHAT COULD HAPPEN AND I AM ALWAY PREPARE FOR THE WORST PUNCH ME I KNOCK YOU OUT!!!!!!!!!!

SUPERMAN

EVERY GIRL I KNOW WANTS A SUPERMAN TO DATE THEM BUT I DONT WANT A SUPERMAN I WANT A MAN BUT NO SUPER WITH THE MAN I CAN TAKE CARE OF MYSELF I HAVE SINCE I WAS 6 AND WILL TIL I AM 60 I DONT WANT A BABY MAN TO TAKE CARE OF HIM AND CLEAN HIS CLOTHES AND MAKE HIM DINNER EVERY NIGHT FOR HIM BUT I DONT WANT HIM TO TAKE CARE OF ME EITHER WE NEED TO TAKE CARE OF OURSELFS WE CAN LOVE EACH OTHER BUT I DONT NEED TO DEPEND ON SOMEONE AND I DONT WANT TO BE DEPENDED ON EITHER BUT OF COURSE I WILL MAKE DINNER SOMETIMES AND TAKE HIM OUT ONCE IN A WHILE BUT HELL NO I AM NOT A SALVE I LOVE TO COOK BUT I DO WHEN I FEEL LIKE IT SO TELL ME WHY IS IT SO HARD TO FIND A GUY THAT IS THERE FOR LOVE AND NOT FOR ME TO DO ALL THE WORK CAUSE I NOT A HOUSEWIVE OR HOUSEGIRLFRIEND
I AM ME AND HE IS HIM AND IF HE DONT LIKE IT THAN HE BEST BE PACKING!!!!

CANDLE

HAVE YOU EVER FELT LIKE A CANDLE ALL TALL AND STRONG AND THEN SOMEONE LIGHTS YOU UP AND THEN GET WEAK AND SHORT TIL YOUR NOTHING BUT A PILE OF WAX ON THE TABLE I FEEL THAT WAY ALL THE TIME WHEN SOMEONE PUSH ME DOWN BUT NOW I MUST REALIZE I HAVE TO CLIMB ALL THE WAY UP AGAIN TO SHOW THEM I AM NOT WORTHLESS AND TO PROVE TO MYSELF I CAN DO ANYTHING I WANT BUT WHAT COMES AFTER IT CAN EITHER BE GOOD OR BAD AND I CAN DO BAD BY MYSELF BUT TO DO GOOD IT WILL TAKE MORE THAN JUST ME IT WILL TAKE THE WHOLE WORLD! DO YOU EVER FEEL LIKE A CANDLE

THE GIRL WHO CANT LOOK BACK

THE GIRL WHO CANT LOOK BACK IS ME I CANT LOOK BACK OF COURSE I REMEMBER BUT I CANT CHANGE IT LIKE HITTING MY MOM AND CALLING THE COPS ON MY GOD MOTHER FOR NOT LETTING ME HOLD MY LITTLE SISTER AND TRYING TO COMMITT SUCIDE AND ALL THE OTHER THING SUSPENDED AND ALWAY TELLING MY MOM I HATE HER OF COURSE I DONT LIKE HER BUT I DONT HATE HER WHEN I WAS YOUNGER I GOT TOLD TWO THING "SUCK IT UP AND MOVE ON" AND "DONT LET SOMEONE CLOSE TO YOU IF YOU THINK YOU CAN HURT THEM AT THE END" FIRST ONE MY ASS OF A SOON TO BE EX STEP DAD LAST ONE MY MOM I NEVER UNDERSTOOD MY MOM'S TIL TODAY